The skies of blue shine down on me
As I look upon his face in adoration
Hoping, wishing
Did he love me too
At night I would lay
Down on my bed
And cry myself to sleep
For once again I'd been ignored
I'd hoped and I'd wished
Now my heart had been broken
But then the next day
While at my locker
He came up beside me
My world came undone
And when I looked up
My eyes full of wonder
He bent down and whispered
"I've noticed you"
And then in that moment
I was enthralled
And my heart stopped beating
Thats when it started
My heart on fire
About to beat through my chest
Then he kissed me
Really kissed me
My wish had finally come true
I'd been wishing for love
And love had finally come
Now when I look at him
My fears are demolished
For I knw he loves me too
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Free
I thought of the way
You felt about me
And wondered why
I couldn't be free
Free to love
And to give you a chance
Free to have and to hold
A chance at romance
I thought about
The way you changed me
And thought of the things
That you made me see
You felt about me
And wondered why
I couldn't be free
Free to love
And to give you a chance
Free to have and to hold
A chance at romance
I thought about
The way you changed me
And thought of the things
That you made me see
I'm beautiful and worth it
And never alone
I'm funny and sweet
And even adorable
I stopped and I wondered
Why others couldn't see
The things that you do
That make me think of you
I thought of these things
And wished I could be
Open and welcoming
Wished I could be free
Changes
When last I saw you
There with me
The change I saw there
Struck down deep
Where no one sees
My heart took a beating
Fear struck down to my core
And every thought
I'd ever had
Went fleeing out the door
I never saw the sun again
Its light now gone away
And every time I hear your name
The night replaces day
The closest friends
Now drawn apart
Caused me to be afraid
That everything I'd ever known
Would change and stay that way
One day we might
turn out to be
Better than we were
But as of now
My life is filled
With a plague that has no cure.
False Happiness
When I turned around
And saw you not there
My heart fell apart
And wondered, whether you cared
While once we were best friends
Close as we could be
Now lies and rumors
Have torn us apart
And happiness will flee
We're far away
From where we were
And death is coming near
To pull and tear at happiness
Where everyone came near
A death has come
And now I know
That happiness is false
When I look there and see you gone
My life refills with strife
Tony
I always knew
That when I took that chance
My heart would wilt and fade
I'd never again be able to dance
My joy would run
To where joy never lives
My soul would wither
Because of what you couldn't give
A change would come
Stealing away my world
Because thats what you were
You were my joy
Always by my side
My everything, my love
You were my all
You left me alone
Though it wasn't by your choice
And knowing its what you'd want
I tried to turn and rejoice
Years have passed and though I tried to be glad
I've found that I can't live without you by my side
I need you here
To help me carry on
If I can't have you with me
I don't know how to try
I want to be happy
To think of what you'd want
But knowing you're gone
Has more than wounded my heart
It has been shattered tortured and burned
And now there is nothing
Even if I change and turn
Because how can I love
When my reason to be is gone
All I can do is to try
And maybe I'll carry on
Dedicated to my one true love, the one who still holds the key to my heart.
11-27-08
I miss you Tony and I will always love you.
Tony Martinez November 14, 1987 - February 14, 2007
That when I took that chance
My heart would wilt and fade
I'd never again be able to dance
My joy would run
To where joy never lives
My soul would wither
Because of what you couldn't give
A change would come
Stealing away my world
Because thats what you were
You were my joy
Always by my side
My everything, my love
You were my all
You left me alone
Though it wasn't by your choice
And knowing its what you'd want
I tried to turn and rejoice
Years have passed and though I tried to be glad
I've found that I can't live without you by my side
I need you here
To help me carry on
If I can't have you with me
I don't know how to try
I want to be happy
To think of what you'd want
But knowing you're gone
Has more than wounded my heart
It has been shattered tortured and burned
And now there is nothing
Even if I change and turn
Because how can I love
When my reason to be is gone
All I can do is to try
And maybe I'll carry on
Dedicated to my one true love, the one who still holds the key to my heart.
11-27-08
I miss you Tony and I will always love you.
Tony Martinez November 14, 1987 - February 14, 2007
Perfection
Lately I've been thinking, and I've come to realize that no matter how many times we run or how many times we try to start over, the past is still there. It doesn't matter how bad or how good it is, its there and it affects who we are as people and as friends, family and significant others. We live life thinking everything is going to go our way, that everything will turn out perfectly, and because of that we won't have to worry or work at having a good life. But then, something comes crashing down, and we withdraw into ourselves, and often begin to believe that nothing will ever go right, and that we may as well be lying somewhere, dead and alone. We think about how no one cares, and about how if we had just been better people, then maybe we would have stood a chance at being happy and living a perfect life. In truth, I think we need to realize that life isn't perfect, and dwelling on our mistakes will only make us more bitter than we need to be, not to mention the extra hurt that dwelling on the past will no doubt cause. Life is never perfect, and expecting it to be will only be setting yourself up for disappointment and more pain and suffering. So everybody needs to realize perfection is over rated, and having the little differences and changes in our plans is what makes life worth living
I Believe #2
I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe God is the only one who can mend a broken heart or a broken past. I believe music is the key to the heart. I believe that my beliefs are my own and your opinion can't change that. I believe love can be false or true, but you have to be careful with your heart. I believe football is confusing. I believe chocolate not diamonds is a girls best friend. I believe that all things are possible but you have to believe for it to happen. I believe in Phantom of the Opera and I believe that musicals are more than just fluff. I believe in looking at the good in all things, but i also believe that it is ok to cry. I believe that true friends are there for the good and the bad and I believe that men generally aren't worth the trouble. I believe in pouring your soul into your passion and I believe that no matter what others say, the freedom to be me is always in my grasp. I believe that Gerald Butler is the cutest guy in the movies, and I believe that Drew Barrymore rocks. I believe that hope is never false. I believe in never just putting half of your heart into something, and I believe that God is the only one that you should always believe is right. I believe that my heart is always to be given and never to be taken away and I believe that with enough love anything is beautiful. I believe that soccer is the best sport and I believe that baseball is easy! I believe that math is easy and science is hard and I believe that poetry is the door to my soul. I believe that with my heart on my sleeve I am vulnerable, but without it there I will become hard. I believe that mistakes cannot be undone but htey can be fixed, and I believe that love makes you whole. I believe that God's mercy never fails and I believe that movies can make you laugh or cry but they are always fun. I believe that books lead you to a whole new world. I believe that escape is good but you should always come back. I believe that truth is truth and that it never changes. I believe that my best friend will never not be there even if we live in other states. I believe in converses. I believe in no shoes. I believe California is the best state. I believe being Italian means I like italian food. I believe art shows who I really am. I believe strength comes from above and we are always stronger than we think. I belive love is key but you cannot always predict it. I believe my parents think they know whats best, but i still believe I'm right. I believe my music expresses my soul. I believe in dancing just to be silly, I believe in dancing to worship God, and I believe in dancing in the rain to the music only I can hear. I believe that being me can never be a bad thing. I believe in ice cream for breakfast and cereal for dinner. I belive in abstinence until marriage, but that doesn't mean I don't love him. I believe that if you love me you'll respect me and if you don't like me you'll get over it. I believe guys make good friends, but if you want something more, you're usually doomed. I believe love is genuine but so is hate. I believe fear can be pointless but that doesn't mean its not there and I believe in living for today. I believe in Les Miserables and I believe true love never dies even if the one you love does. I believe God loves everybody and so should I but I also believe its not always easy. I believe in being happy through the pain and I believe pain is one of the strongest emotions, but most of all I believe that nothing is stronger than faith.
Kor's Beginning
I had been walking for days, wandering up and down in any direction, I didn't care as long as I got out of there. I couldn't take it anymore! All the rules and regulations; sit up straight, cross your legs at the ankles not your knees, never wear jeans in public, for heavens sake if a skirt is that abhorred to you please at least khakis or better yet slacks, never wear your skirts above your knees, use your silverwear the right way dear, always have your hair in a length becoming of a young lady and not of some insolent boy. All the rules! It made being alive worse than death could ever be... Well now that I was free the first thing I'd done was cut off my hair. Instead of my hair being down to my waist it was now only about chin length, and athat was only in the front, in the back it had been completely chopped off so that it was about as short as a boys and spiked messily on its own.
I couldn't help reveling in the feeling of complete freedom as I walked through the woods in God knows where USA. I was free! No more rules, no more hair, and I was wearing jeans! Heavenly glorious jeans!
I had just sat down to eat my last apple when I heard a quiet snap that was so silent I wasn't even sure I'd heard it. I had been hearing soft non existent sounds like that one all day, and I decided it was time to find out whether or not my family was tracking me down. God knows they could never stand the embarrassbent of not having been able to control their wild child. Oh no they wouldn't be looking for me because they were worried about me, but because they would be worried about their precious reputation. As I started to look around, I began to feel like a fool, surely if there was a someone out there I would have had some definite piece of evidence that they were out there. You didn't just wander around for 5 days with someone following you and never see another sign of that person. And if it was an animal, well it would have attacked me by now.
I returned to my pack and slowly heaved it into place on my back before starting forward again. I was just leaving the clearing I had been eating in when I saw a flash of bright bright orange in the distance. "Ok Kor," I thought, "that is not a color you would see in the woods. You're definitly not alone anymore." If it had been anybody else who had seen the color in the woods, it would have said a shirt or a hunter, but I saw it, and that said that something not human was out there. I was part fairie, and all fairies had a gift, for me that meant i saw auras. And bright neon orange was not a color I had ever seen on a human or any animal I had ever seen.
"Hello!" I called out sounding a bit frantic despite my efforts to sound calm. "Who's out there?"
When I didn't get an answer I stepped forward again. "I know you're there, I've been hearing you all day, and neon orange is definitly not a color I would have seen on a normal day in the city let alone the woods. Especially not on something that moves that fast."
I was just beginnning to think I really was crazy when I felt somebody grab me from behind in a grip that seemed almost too strong to be human. "What the...," I started to say as I suddenly lost consciousness.
I couldn't believe she'd heard me, let alone seen me. It was something no human had managed to do in the past century. I was Vampyr, I was of the undead, with powers known by no mere mortal, and there was no way she should have been able to see me. Damn it! Nic was going to kill me for this... he was the more open and outgoing of the two of us, but he had a temper to be feared.
I laid her down gently on the ground as I stepped back to decide what to do about her. I couldn't just leave her, that would be rude and unthinkable, besides what if seh told someone about what she'd seen? And I couldn't kill her either. Nic and I had to have blood to survive, but we had made a pact to nevre kill unless we were attacked first and that was the only way to get out alive. So what was I to do with her?
I was still pacing around the clearing when Nic strode in looking so very full of himself, I was sure that his hunt had gone very well. Completly opposite of mine just like everything else. Sometimes I couldn't believe all his good luck.
As I made my way into the clearing, I could immediately tell that my brother was agitated, and that he blocked something with his body, but at this angle I couldn't be sure what it was. Knowing full well what the answer was, I calledout softly to my brother.
"Something the matter Wil?"
Rolling his eyes lightly, Wil replied, "You have no idea. How was your hunt?"
"It went well enough I suppose, and yours?"
"If you would cross the clearing I will show you how it went."
I started slowly across thinking all the way that there was no way this could be as bad as he was making it out to be. Wil was a worrier, he always had been, but it had gotten worse after our conversion. He was always worrying about being discovered or killing someone. I could understand worrying, but he took it too far.
I crossed the clearing, and as I reached my brother I saw what he had been hiding. And what I saw blew me away. Laid out on the ground behind Wil was the most devestatingly beautiful girl I had ever seen. And she was just that, a girl not yet 20 years old. Even though she was beautiful, she wasn't beautiful in a traditional sense. She looked to be about 17 years old with dark brown hair that was almost black. Lying there I could only see that her hair was short, only to here chin, and with a slight wave to it that showed its thickness without causing her hair to be unruly in anyway. She was short about 7 or 8 inches shorter than my 5' 9", and curvy instead of the traditional fashoin of being a wisp of skin and bones. Although I could not see her eyes in her state of unconsiousness, I imagined them to be a deep brown or blue to go with her porcelain complexion. As she laid there looking dead, I saw the thick crescent of black lashes against her cheeks. She looked like an angel even in death, and as the realization that she must be dead hit me I felt and unesplained stab of pain in the region of my heart. How could I have finally found her, my angel, my perfect match, and have her be dead? I didn't need to know her to know that she would have been it for me, my one true other half.
In the seconds it took me to make this realization, I was up and turning on my brother with preternatural speed. "You," I cried! "How could you have done this? What of our pact? Does it mean nothing to you if you want something enough?" I was enraged! We had promised no death, and now when I finally had the one to make me complete, she had been wiped out by my own twin! My flesh and blood! I backed William up agains a tree while he tried to say something, but I was beyond hearing. Finally as I calmed just enought o slow down, he threw me across the clearing.
"You idiot! You bloody idiot! She isn't dead just unconscious. and what business do you have being so angry over some stranger's death? Its not as though she's you lifemate, and even if she was... I'll say it again she is not dead. I mearely knocked her unconsciousl so that I could decide what to do with her."
Though it took a minute for this information to sink in, when it did I froze in shock. "She's not dead?" I rushed to her side immediately, gathering her into my arms. While I held her I realized that she was slight, weighing no more han 100 pounds, and I wondered how long she had been out here in the woods.
"So if you didn't kill her Wil, what happened?"
"She saw me."
I was shocked. "What? But thats not possible."
Looking confused and worried, he replied slowly. "I thought the same, but she did. She was so sure she heard something that she stepped forward to look fo rme, and as she did I had turned to run toa new place in the trees around this clearing and she saw me."
I still didn't understand, how could she have seen him. With our powers and our skill, no one should have been able to see either of us.
I was still contemplating this when he got in my face. "Personally," he whispered, "I think she's crazy."
I was outraged on her behalf, "what makes you say that?" I said my voice tense with supressed anger.
"She kept going on about seeing orange, I'm wearing black from head to toe. So we have two questions that need answering. Why did she need orange? and What do we do with her?"
"Well, there is no way to answer the first question and as for the second, we have her join us."
Stuttering for words, he slowly formed his reply. "Are you mad? Because no way will any mortal join us. Eve
I couldn't help reveling in the feeling of complete freedom as I walked through the woods in God knows where USA. I was free! No more rules, no more hair, and I was wearing jeans! Heavenly glorious jeans!
I had just sat down to eat my last apple when I heard a quiet snap that was so silent I wasn't even sure I'd heard it. I had been hearing soft non existent sounds like that one all day, and I decided it was time to find out whether or not my family was tracking me down. God knows they could never stand the embarrassbent of not having been able to control their wild child. Oh no they wouldn't be looking for me because they were worried about me, but because they would be worried about their precious reputation. As I started to look around, I began to feel like a fool, surely if there was a someone out there I would have had some definite piece of evidence that they were out there. You didn't just wander around for 5 days with someone following you and never see another sign of that person. And if it was an animal, well it would have attacked me by now.
I returned to my pack and slowly heaved it into place on my back before starting forward again. I was just leaving the clearing I had been eating in when I saw a flash of bright bright orange in the distance. "Ok Kor," I thought, "that is not a color you would see in the woods. You're definitly not alone anymore." If it had been anybody else who had seen the color in the woods, it would have said a shirt or a hunter, but I saw it, and that said that something not human was out there. I was part fairie, and all fairies had a gift, for me that meant i saw auras. And bright neon orange was not a color I had ever seen on a human or any animal I had ever seen.
"Hello!" I called out sounding a bit frantic despite my efforts to sound calm. "Who's out there?"
When I didn't get an answer I stepped forward again. "I know you're there, I've been hearing you all day, and neon orange is definitly not a color I would have seen on a normal day in the city let alone the woods. Especially not on something that moves that fast."
I was just beginnning to think I really was crazy when I felt somebody grab me from behind in a grip that seemed almost too strong to be human. "What the...," I started to say as I suddenly lost consciousness.
I couldn't believe she'd heard me, let alone seen me. It was something no human had managed to do in the past century. I was Vampyr, I was of the undead, with powers known by no mere mortal, and there was no way she should have been able to see me. Damn it! Nic was going to kill me for this... he was the more open and outgoing of the two of us, but he had a temper to be feared.
I laid her down gently on the ground as I stepped back to decide what to do about her. I couldn't just leave her, that would be rude and unthinkable, besides what if seh told someone about what she'd seen? And I couldn't kill her either. Nic and I had to have blood to survive, but we had made a pact to nevre kill unless we were attacked first and that was the only way to get out alive. So what was I to do with her?
I was still pacing around the clearing when Nic strode in looking so very full of himself, I was sure that his hunt had gone very well. Completly opposite of mine just like everything else. Sometimes I couldn't believe all his good luck.
As I made my way into the clearing, I could immediately tell that my brother was agitated, and that he blocked something with his body, but at this angle I couldn't be sure what it was. Knowing full well what the answer was, I calledout softly to my brother.
"Something the matter Wil?"
Rolling his eyes lightly, Wil replied, "You have no idea. How was your hunt?"
"It went well enough I suppose, and yours?"
"If you would cross the clearing I will show you how it went."
I started slowly across thinking all the way that there was no way this could be as bad as he was making it out to be. Wil was a worrier, he always had been, but it had gotten worse after our conversion. He was always worrying about being discovered or killing someone. I could understand worrying, but he took it too far.
I crossed the clearing, and as I reached my brother I saw what he had been hiding. And what I saw blew me away. Laid out on the ground behind Wil was the most devestatingly beautiful girl I had ever seen. And she was just that, a girl not yet 20 years old. Even though she was beautiful, she wasn't beautiful in a traditional sense. She looked to be about 17 years old with dark brown hair that was almost black. Lying there I could only see that her hair was short, only to here chin, and with a slight wave to it that showed its thickness without causing her hair to be unruly in anyway. She was short about 7 or 8 inches shorter than my 5' 9", and curvy instead of the traditional fashoin of being a wisp of skin and bones. Although I could not see her eyes in her state of unconsiousness, I imagined them to be a deep brown or blue to go with her porcelain complexion. As she laid there looking dead, I saw the thick crescent of black lashes against her cheeks. She looked like an angel even in death, and as the realization that she must be dead hit me I felt and unesplained stab of pain in the region of my heart. How could I have finally found her, my angel, my perfect match, and have her be dead? I didn't need to know her to know that she would have been it for me, my one true other half.
In the seconds it took me to make this realization, I was up and turning on my brother with preternatural speed. "You," I cried! "How could you have done this? What of our pact? Does it mean nothing to you if you want something enough?" I was enraged! We had promised no death, and now when I finally had the one to make me complete, she had been wiped out by my own twin! My flesh and blood! I backed William up agains a tree while he tried to say something, but I was beyond hearing. Finally as I calmed just enought o slow down, he threw me across the clearing.
"You idiot! You bloody idiot! She isn't dead just unconscious. and what business do you have being so angry over some stranger's death? Its not as though she's you lifemate, and even if she was... I'll say it again she is not dead. I mearely knocked her unconsciousl so that I could decide what to do with her."
Though it took a minute for this information to sink in, when it did I froze in shock. "She's not dead?" I rushed to her side immediately, gathering her into my arms. While I held her I realized that she was slight, weighing no more han 100 pounds, and I wondered how long she had been out here in the woods.
"So if you didn't kill her Wil, what happened?"
"She saw me."
I was shocked. "What? But thats not possible."
Looking confused and worried, he replied slowly. "I thought the same, but she did. She was so sure she heard something that she stepped forward to look fo rme, and as she did I had turned to run toa new place in the trees around this clearing and she saw me."
I still didn't understand, how could she have seen him. With our powers and our skill, no one should have been able to see either of us.
I was still contemplating this when he got in my face. "Personally," he whispered, "I think she's crazy."
I was outraged on her behalf, "what makes you say that?" I said my voice tense with supressed anger.
"She kept going on about seeing orange, I'm wearing black from head to toe. So we have two questions that need answering. Why did she need orange? and What do we do with her?"
"Well, there is no way to answer the first question and as for the second, we have her join us."
Stuttering for words, he slowly formed his reply. "Are you mad? Because no way will any mortal join us. Eve
Do You
Do you see me
Looking at you
Can you understand
Why I do the things I do
Why I have dreamed
And why I have wished
Why my heart bleeds
With the way I've been dismissed
So I'm askin do you hear me
Calling out your name
Now I'm asking can you comprehend
Why I'll never be the same
Those three little words
You never did say
Are not the only reason
I've turned out this way
Looking at you
Can you understand
Why I do the things I do
Why I have dreamed
And why I have wished
Why my heart bleeds
With the way I've been dismissed
So I'm askin do you hear me
Calling out your name
Now I'm asking can you comprehend
Why I'll never be the same
Those three little words
You never did say
Are not the only reason
I've turned out this way
Love
What is love?
Love cares even when you pull away.
Love cares even though you're not who you once were.
Love pulls you out of the darkest of depressions and shows you "You are never alone"
Love wants more than you can by yourself give, but helps you to give it and stays when you fail.
Love wants you to be the best you can be, but never condems you when you make a wrong choice.
Love knows you the way you wnat to be and pulls you towards being that person.
Love cleanses the darkest stain on your soul and turns you into the person you were meant to be.
Love chooses you even when you are a horrible person who could never ever be the person they deserve.
Love its the light that changes your life.
And love is the only thing that matters, but everything at the same time.
Love cares even when you pull away.
Love cares even though you're not who you once were.
Love pulls you out of the darkest of depressions and shows you "You are never alone"
Love wants more than you can by yourself give, but helps you to give it and stays when you fail.
Love wants you to be the best you can be, but never condems you when you make a wrong choice.
Love knows you the way you wnat to be and pulls you towards being that person.
Love cleanses the darkest stain on your soul and turns you into the person you were meant to be.
Love chooses you even when you are a horrible person who could never ever be the person they deserve.
Love its the light that changes your life.
And love is the only thing that matters, but everything at the same time.
Hearts
Our hearts are like a vault
Full of many things
They are full of hate and love
And some are full of dreams
But mine is full of God
His mercy, love, and grace
His heart is full of kindness
when I look upon his face
For when he sent his son
who died upon the cross
We did not deserve it
For we were fullof pride
Our words were full of venom
And even now
Our hearts are never empty
They always have some feeling
So when you have some doubt
Just turn your heart to God
For his heart is full of heavenly things
And ours not like our Kings
Full of many things
They are full of hate and love
And some are full of dreams
But mine is full of God
His mercy, love, and grace
His heart is full of kindness
when I look upon his face
For when he sent his son
who died upon the cross
We did not deserve it
For we were fullof pride
Our words were full of venom
And even now
Our hearts are never empty
They always have some feeling
So when you have some doubt
Just turn your heart to God
For his heart is full of heavenly things
And ours not like our Kings
Without Me
I know that your love
Might have been true
But knowing that
Only makes me feel blue
To know that a love
That once was so full
Is now empty and fleeting
Only makes me feel like a fool
I thought that your love
Would make me complete
But losing that love
Made my world obsolete
Your love made me whole
And it filled me with glee
But now that you've left
I only wonder why it seems
That you can only be happy
When you're gone without me
Might have been true
But knowing that
Only makes me feel blue
To know that a love
That once was so full
Is now empty and fleeting
Only makes me feel like a fool
I thought that your love
Would make me complete
But losing that love
Made my world obsolete
Your love made me whole
And it filled me with glee
But now that you've left
I only wonder why it seems
That you can only be happy
When you're gone without me
Without You
I'm here alone again
Without you here
I have no gain
I wished for love
And thought I'd found
A way to be happy
Here with you gone
But knowing you're gone
Has only taken away
My chance at joy
My chance at love
I found a change
And thought it would help
To change the pain
To change my shame
A shame that had come
From losing your love
From trying to be
The same with you gone
Without you here
I have no gain
I wished for love
And thought I'd found
A way to be happy
Here with you gone
But knowing you're gone
Has only taken away
My chance at joy
My chance at love
I found a change
And thought it would help
To change the pain
To change my shame
A shame that had come
From losing your love
From trying to be
The same with you gone
Tortured Soul
Burned and tortured
He cries out to death
No mother or father
He feels so alone
His hopes have been shattered
His dreams have been killed
He needs his own angel
To help him fulfill
He wonders when he'll meet her
Or if he already has
If he has is it too late
If he hasn't what will she be
His life is in pieces
But he picks it up off the ground
His fear is pulling him to bits
But he'll pull himself together somehow
But his angel is coming
She hears his anguished cries
She's coming to help him
Help him into the sky
He'll pull himself together
Then look back on his life
And wonder how he ever could have been
Such and anguished tortured soul
He cries out to death
No mother or father
He feels so alone
His hopes have been shattered
His dreams have been killed
He needs his own angel
To help him fulfill
He wonders when he'll meet her
Or if he already has
If he has is it too late
If he hasn't what will she be
His life is in pieces
But he picks it up off the ground
His fear is pulling him to bits
But he'll pull himself together somehow
But his angel is coming
She hears his anguished cries
She's coming to help him
Help him into the sky
He'll pull himself together
Then look back on his life
And wonder how he ever could have been
Such and anguished tortured soul
No Longer Alone
Lies and destruction
Have torn up her life
A tedious existence
And a life full of strife
With no one to turn to
And no where to go
She turns from her family
And sets out on her own
But hten she is found
By the one who can help
Now she has claim
On the one who can comfort
The one she can't blaim
She now has a family
And friends all her own
She's glad that she found him
Glad she is no longer alone
Have torn up her life
A tedious existence
And a life full of strife
With no one to turn to
And no where to go
She turns from her family
And sets out on her own
But hten she is found
By the one who can help
Now she has claim
On the one who can comfort
The one she can't blaim
She now has a family
And friends all her own
She's glad that she found him
Glad she is no longer alone
Colorless World
I woke up early this morning
To watch the glorious sunrise
But when I finally got there
There was nothing there to see
But a black and white sky
That disappointed me
As I walked back over the rise
I noticed a streak of color
In this world that still had none
But then when I drew closer
It seemed to shrink and pop
It was gone and I was left
In boring world
With no one but myself
My friends had all changed
In this world of good and bad
Where black was pure evil
And white just never stops
It is always good and heavenly
But then it kind of popped
The world then froze over
All was black and grey
And then in a rush
The color came back
The trees were green and brown
The flowers a rainbow all around
The sun came over the rise
And my life was no longer a suprise
To watch the glorious sunrise
But when I finally got there
There was nothing there to see
But a black and white sky
That disappointed me
As I walked back over the rise
I noticed a streak of color
In this world that still had none
But then when I drew closer
It seemed to shrink and pop
It was gone and I was left
In boring world
With no one but myself
My friends had all changed
In this world of good and bad
Where black was pure evil
And white just never stops
It is always good and heavenly
But then it kind of popped
The world then froze over
All was black and grey
And then in a rush
The color came back
The trees were green and brown
The flowers a rainbow all around
The sun came over the rise
And my life was no longer a suprise
You Said
You said that you
Would always love me
You said that you
Were differnent than the others
You said that I could trust you
To keep my heart safe
But now I see
That what I believed
Was a lie
That you've left me here
Wanting to die
I'm all alone again
Will this ever end
I've given my heart blindly
And now it is broken
But now I've learned
That love is a myth
I know that now
Because of what
You said
Would always love me
You said that you
Were differnent than the others
You said that I could trust you
To keep my heart safe
But now I see
That what I believed
Was a lie
That you've left me here
Wanting to die
I'm all alone again
Will this ever end
I've given my heart blindly
And now it is broken
But now I've learned
That love is a myth
I know that now
Because of what
You said
No Title
Like an old abandoned doll
I sit on a shelf
Worn and cracked
Covered in dust
My limbs no longer move with the ease that they once did
And my brightly colored paint
Has faded with the years
The life that you once saw
When you looked upon my form
Has faded and slipped away
Like the attention you once gave
But then someone new
Comes and takes me from my shelf
My joints are oiled sothat move with ease
And new paint is applied with care and love
I'm given new clothes and washed and repaired
So that now when you look at me
You can no longer tell that once I was abandoned
And hidden away
Instead I look cared for
In the past just like today
Because I have a new master
Someone who will care
Someone has come along who will shower me with care
And finally I feel like a doll that someone loves
I sit on a shelf
Worn and cracked
Covered in dust
My limbs no longer move with the ease that they once did
And my brightly colored paint
Has faded with the years
The life that you once saw
When you looked upon my form
Has faded and slipped away
Like the attention you once gave
But then someone new
Comes and takes me from my shelf
My joints are oiled sothat move with ease
And new paint is applied with care and love
I'm given new clothes and washed and repaired
So that now when you look at me
You can no longer tell that once I was abandoned
And hidden away
Instead I look cared for
In the past just like today
Because I have a new master
Someone who will care
Someone has come along who will shower me with care
And finally I feel like a doll that someone loves
My Soldier
Alone, empty, and done with life
I look to my soldier
But he's not there for me
Its not by his choice
I know if he could
He's be here beside me
Instead of over there
Over with the dust
The dry heat and spiders
With days full of death
Of war and of fighting
If only he were given a choice
I know the choice he'd make
But instead he'll stay
And serve his country
With respect and with honor
Because he is a soldier
And that is his duty
And I wouldn't have it any other way
I love you Michael Nicholas Strout! You are my Angel and I am your Buffy, and I will love you forever and ever!
I look to my soldier
But he's not there for me
Its not by his choice
I know if he could
He's be here beside me
Instead of over there
Over with the dust
The dry heat and spiders
With days full of death
Of war and of fighting
If only he were given a choice
I know the choice he'd make
But instead he'll stay
And serve his country
With respect and with honor
Because he is a soldier
And that is his duty
And I wouldn't have it any other way
I love you Michael Nicholas Strout! You are my Angel and I am your Buffy, and I will love you forever and ever!
Daddy's Little Girl
Vs. 1
Her first look into the world
She saw those big brown eyes and she smiled
But it was all ripped away
By a horrid twist of fate
She wondered why it had happened
She wondered if it would change
It was all gone for daddy's little girl
Ch.
She's my baby girl
My precious gift of joy
The one who makes my heart whole
She's my star in the sky
I won't let her cry
And you took her away
This day
She was daddy's little girl
Vs. 2
When she saw his face
She knew it was meant to be
No one else could ever fill the void
No one else could help her see
She was beautiful and wanted in every way
And when she turned and looked away
Her dad turned back to her and said
Ch.
You're my baby girl
My precious gift of joy
The one who makes my heart whole
You're my star in the sky
I won't let you cry
And they took you away
That day
But you're my little girl
Vs. 3
That little girl grew up
And she finally found the right guy
And when the time finally came
For him to walk her down the aisle
The tears welled up in her eyes
As she looked into his face
She saw the doubt that he felt inside
So she turned to him and said
Ch.
I'm your baby girl
Your precious gift of joy
You finally made my heart whole
You're my star in the sky
Daddy please don't cry
I'm not leaving away
This day
Dad I'm your little girl
Her daddy cried
She's my baby girl
My precious gift of joy
The one who makes my heart whole
She's my star in the sky
You better not make her cry
Yes I'll give her away
This day
But she's still my little girl
Her first look into the world
She saw those big brown eyes
And she smiled
Her first look into the world
She saw those big brown eyes and she smiled
But it was all ripped away
By a horrid twist of fate
She wondered why it had happened
She wondered if it would change
It was all gone for daddy's little girl
Ch.
She's my baby girl
My precious gift of joy
The one who makes my heart whole
She's my star in the sky
I won't let her cry
And you took her away
This day
She was daddy's little girl
Vs. 2
When she saw his face
She knew it was meant to be
No one else could ever fill the void
No one else could help her see
She was beautiful and wanted in every way
And when she turned and looked away
Her dad turned back to her and said
Ch.
You're my baby girl
My precious gift of joy
The one who makes my heart whole
You're my star in the sky
I won't let you cry
And they took you away
That day
But you're my little girl
Vs. 3
That little girl grew up
And she finally found the right guy
And when the time finally came
For him to walk her down the aisle
The tears welled up in her eyes
As she looked into his face
She saw the doubt that he felt inside
So she turned to him and said
Ch.
I'm your baby girl
Your precious gift of joy
You finally made my heart whole
You're my star in the sky
Daddy please don't cry
I'm not leaving away
This day
Dad I'm your little girl
Her daddy cried
She's my baby girl
My precious gift of joy
The one who makes my heart whole
She's my star in the sky
You better not make her cry
Yes I'll give her away
This day
But she's still my little girl
Her first look into the world
She saw those big brown eyes
And she smiled
Love Can Be Impossible
But I know that love can be impossible
You say it fixes everything
That love can change your life
I say that may be so bt how can you possibly know
You argue and say that love makes things whole
I turn around and say I used to think so
It brings joy you cry, It could make you happy again
You beg and you plead and your desperate for that chance
But I know that love can be impossible
You claim to love me, you say you love her
but how can you love us both when you keep going back to her
I believed in your love, it only proved false
You're right love changes things
I'm no longer the same
But love didn't make things whole or better
It only made me wonder
How could you love two people
But beg for me to choose
When all I can say after whispering your name is
Baby, you're right, but I know that love can be impossible too
You say it fixes everything
That love can change your life
I say that may be so bt how can you possibly know
You argue and say that love makes things whole
I turn around and say I used to think so
It brings joy you cry, It could make you happy again
You beg and you plead and your desperate for that chance
But I know that love can be impossible
You claim to love me, you say you love her
but how can you love us both when you keep going back to her
I believed in your love, it only proved false
You're right love changes things
I'm no longer the same
But love didn't make things whole or better
It only made me wonder
How could you love two people
But beg for me to choose
When all I can say after whispering your name is
Baby, you're right, but I know that love can be impossible too
Dreams
What happens when you choose to dream?
Do you leap first and ask questions later?
Or do you plot and plan the next steps for tomorrow?
In my years I have had many dreams
To save the world
To be a fairy princess
To find my dad
And to find true love
But how do you make your dreams come true?
How do you know what to do?
You follow your heart
And listen to advice
Because dreaming leads to many things
but dreaming also gives us wings
Do you leap first and ask questions later?
Or do you plot and plan the next steps for tomorrow?
In my years I have had many dreams
To save the world
To be a fairy princess
To find my dad
And to find true love
But how do you make your dreams come true?
How do you know what to do?
You follow your heart
And listen to advice
Because dreaming leads to many things
but dreaming also gives us wings
Heroes
Heroes are everywhere
In houses and families
In the streets where we live
No matter where we look
We see heroes
In a little girl helping her brother to learn and to grow
In a teenager choosing to help out a friend instead of clwaing their way up the popularity ladder
The soldiers fighting for our freedom
The men who protect us day to day
Firefighters, Doctors,
Our protectors, our hope
Because if we look back
Would we be where we are today
If it weren't for the brave men and women
Who fight for us
Everyday
In houses and families
In the streets where we live
No matter where we look
We see heroes
In a little girl helping her brother to learn and to grow
In a teenager choosing to help out a friend instead of clwaing their way up the popularity ladder
The soldiers fighting for our freedom
The men who protect us day to day
Firefighters, Doctors,
Our protectors, our hope
Because if we look back
Would we be where we are today
If it weren't for the brave men and women
Who fight for us
Everyday
Another Chance
I'd turned from hope, from happiness
I thought I didn't deserve
The things that others around me had
I thought I'd always have to serve
My friends, helping them find their joy
Buried there, deep within
Till that day that I turned
And you found me there
Hiding, unsure of my course
But the things you said
Spoke to my heart
You convinced me to take that chance
To not give up on joy and on love
To dance another dance
I've learned since then
That its not just for them
That I can be happy too
I've gone through a change
That brought me back to life
That helped me to rejoin the game
Because now I have found
Someone I can trust
Someone I know is true
My despair, washed away with the rain
My feelings no longer glum or blue
I'm hopeful again
Ready to jump
Ready to go down that road
My heart is full of love, instead of the fear
Because you brought me hope from above
I thought I didn't deserve
The things that others around me had
I thought I'd always have to serve
My friends, helping them find their joy
Buried there, deep within
Till that day that I turned
And you found me there
Hiding, unsure of my course
But the things you said
Spoke to my heart
You convinced me to take that chance
To not give up on joy and on love
To dance another dance
I've learned since then
That its not just for them
That I can be happy too
I've gone through a change
That brought me back to life
That helped me to rejoin the game
Because now I have found
Someone I can trust
Someone I know is true
My despair, washed away with the rain
My feelings no longer glum or blue
I'm hopeful again
Ready to jump
Ready to go down that road
My heart is full of love, instead of the fear
Because you brought me hope from above
Where I am From
I am from the bent and worn pages of old tattered love letters that I have read too many time, love letters that I turn to for the golden soft memories when my world is cloaked in darkness, turmoil and despair.
From the ballpoint pen with barely any ink and the pages of my journal, yellowed and torn with age, that have been my constant companion for year, always there when i need somewhere for my feelings to flow.
I am from the overflowing bookshelves, Shakespears, Dickensons, and Poes, Kingsburys and Cabbots, piles of books, and notebooks of poems that allow me to take part in another life.
The buttery soft pages and the majestic worlds where i turn to escape my own.
I am from the roses, yellow, pink, and red, all the colors of the rainbow in a vase upon my desk, the petals soft like velvet, but their thorns always alert to keep predators, greedy and lost, far across the green.
I am from birthday dinners, the sweet brown sauce taking me back to another time. A time when Yugoslavian Spagetti was known by women far away and enjoyed by the families always in their care and blanketed in their love.
From Armstrongs, true to themselves, Italian, British, and never willing to back down. From Scotts and Irish quick with their temper and even quicker to the bottle.
I am from the fighting families, the crazy moments that make you want to scream and from never knowing where to turn when a dad's gentle arms were the only thing that could comfort me.
From being worthless and unloved, curled in a corner because no one ever believed in me, and from dreams of making it big in the world of music and fame.
I am from turning to Jesus because he is God's son, and worshipping nobody else.
I am from the far away shores of England and Italy, from Ireland, Scotland, and more, from Wales and Yugoslavia, and even from the walls and streets, the buildings and oceans, of the hated Jerusalem.
From lasagna, meaty and thick, cheese melted and warm, and Mama soup the color of blood always ready to warm my soul.
From the loss of innocence that came at a young age, and the stories of my youth that remind me of harder times and show me a time of desperation that those of old worked through to get to where they are today.
The death and loss that Jews went through because of Hitler, determined to wipe us out, because he was offended and had lost his way.
A chest of hope, buried away where only I can find, but I have to dig deep, far within, blood coming from my search, and tears staining the ground.
I am from love, pain, and despair, but mostly I am from hope.
From the ballpoint pen with barely any ink and the pages of my journal, yellowed and torn with age, that have been my constant companion for year, always there when i need somewhere for my feelings to flow.
I am from the overflowing bookshelves, Shakespears, Dickensons, and Poes, Kingsburys and Cabbots, piles of books, and notebooks of poems that allow me to take part in another life.
The buttery soft pages and the majestic worlds where i turn to escape my own.
I am from the roses, yellow, pink, and red, all the colors of the rainbow in a vase upon my desk, the petals soft like velvet, but their thorns always alert to keep predators, greedy and lost, far across the green.
I am from birthday dinners, the sweet brown sauce taking me back to another time. A time when Yugoslavian Spagetti was known by women far away and enjoyed by the families always in their care and blanketed in their love.
From Armstrongs, true to themselves, Italian, British, and never willing to back down. From Scotts and Irish quick with their temper and even quicker to the bottle.
I am from the fighting families, the crazy moments that make you want to scream and from never knowing where to turn when a dad's gentle arms were the only thing that could comfort me.
From being worthless and unloved, curled in a corner because no one ever believed in me, and from dreams of making it big in the world of music and fame.
I am from turning to Jesus because he is God's son, and worshipping nobody else.
I am from the far away shores of England and Italy, from Ireland, Scotland, and more, from Wales and Yugoslavia, and even from the walls and streets, the buildings and oceans, of the hated Jerusalem.
From lasagna, meaty and thick, cheese melted and warm, and Mama soup the color of blood always ready to warm my soul.
From the loss of innocence that came at a young age, and the stories of my youth that remind me of harder times and show me a time of desperation that those of old worked through to get to where they are today.
The death and loss that Jews went through because of Hitler, determined to wipe us out, because he was offended and had lost his way.
A chest of hope, buried away where only I can find, but I have to dig deep, far within, blood coming from my search, and tears staining the ground.
I am from love, pain, and despair, but mostly I am from hope.
I Believe
I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe God is the only one who can mend a broken heart or a broken past. I believe music is the key to the heart. I believe that my beliefs are my own and your opinion can't change that. I believe love can be false or true, but you have to be careful with your heart. I believe football is confusing. I believe chocolate not diamonds is a girls best friend. I believe that all things are possible but you have to believe for it to happen. I believe in Phantom of the Opera and I believe that musicals are more than just fluff. I believe in looking at the good in all things, but i also believe that it is ok to cry. I believe that true friends are there for the good and the bad and I believe that men generally aren't worth the trouble. I believe in pouring your soul into your passion and I believe that no matter what others say, the freedom to be me is always in my grasp. I believe that Gerald Butler is the cutest guy in the movies, and I believe that Drew Barrymore rocks. I believe that hope is never false. I believe in never just putting half of your heart into something, and I believe that God is the only one that you should always believe is right. I believe that my heart is always to be given and never to be taken away and I believe that with enough love anything is beautiful. I believe that soccer is the best sport and I believe that baseball is easy! I believe that math is easy and science is hard and I believe that poetry is the door to my soul. I believe that with my heart on my sleeve I am vulnerable, but without it there I will become hard. I believe that mistakes cannot be undone but htey can be fixed, and I believe that love makes you whole. I believe that God's mercy never fails and I believe that movies can make you laugh or cry but they are always fun. I believe that books lead you to a whole new world. I believe that escape is good but you should always come back. I believe that truth is truth and that it never changes. I believe that my best friend will never not be there even if we live in other states. I believe in converses. I believe in no shoes. I believe California is the best state. I believe being Italian means I like italian food. I believe art shows who I really am. I believe strength comes from above and we are always stronger than we think. I belive love is key but you cannot always predict it. I believe my parents think they know whats best, but i still believe I'm right. I believe my music expresses my soul. I believe in dancing just to be silly, I believe in dancing to worship God, and I believe in dancing in the rain to the music only I can hear. I believe that being me can never be a bad thing. I believe in ice cream for breakfast and cereal for dinner. I belive in abstinence until marriage, but that doesn't mean I don't love him. I believe that if you love me you'll respect me and if you don't like me you'll get over it. I believe guys make good friends, but if you want something more, you're usually doomed. I believe love is genuine but so is hate. I believe fear can be pointless but that doesn't mean its not there and I believe in living for today. I believe in Les Miserables and I believe true love never dies even if the one you love does. I believe God loves everybody and so should I but I also believe its not always easy. I believe in being happy through the pain and I believe pain is one of the strongest emotions, but most of all I believe that nothing is stronger than faith.
Lives given for our freedom
This is for all those who have given their lives for our freedom. So many of us take the things we do everyday for granted, so many of us never stop to think how life would be without the lives given by soldiers over the years, past, present, and future, that have given the rest of us a chance to live, to really truly live, because the simple truth is, so few of us really truly care. This poem is to thank those soldiers risking their lives today and to remember for just a moment the ones who have already been lost. Thank you.
Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees;
a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats
One by one the teacher called a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.
"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.
"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far
You see he was a firefighter
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and she saw him there that day.
And to her mothers amazement,
she witnessed with surprise
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.
Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees;
a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats
One by one the teacher called a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
for a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one,"
another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her,
as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique.
"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
and taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.
"Cause my daddy's always with me,
even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
he'll forever be in my heart"
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
but heaven's just too far
You see he was a firefighter
and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers
and taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes,
and she saw him there that day.
And to her mothers amazement,
she witnessed with surprise
A room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy,"
to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.
Graduation Poem ~ On to better things....
We've gone through drama, hurt, and pain
But the time has finally come
For us to move past highschool
For us to go down that road
For us to take a chance in the world
Its time for us to grow and change
And now that that time has come
We'll spread our wings and take a leap of faith
And then with any luck
Our wings will catch on the winds of success
And then we'll make our way
We'll get new jobs
And take new chances
Because we finally have that choice
We'll make a difference
And find our place
We'll have finally made our mark
Because we are adults
And after this day
We will move into the world
We will take a stand and take our place
On this day when we graduate
But the time has finally come
For us to move past highschool
For us to go down that road
For us to take a chance in the world
Its time for us to grow and change
And now that that time has come
We'll spread our wings and take a leap of faith
And then with any luck
Our wings will catch on the winds of success
And then we'll make our way
We'll get new jobs
And take new chances
Because we finally have that choice
We'll make a difference
And find our place
We'll have finally made our mark
Because we are adults
And after this day
We will move into the world
We will take a stand and take our place
On this day when we graduate
Brighter Day
Vs. 1
I have dreamed a dream
Of a brighter day
I have watched and waited
For that dream to come true
And I'll sit and I'll wait
As I wish for you
As I dream of a life spent with you
C.
Cause only you can fill the void
Only you can make me whole
So I'll sit here and I'll wait
For my prince to take me home
Cause only you can take my dreams
Make them into something real
I am waiting for the one
Who can sweep me away
I'm waiting for a brighter day
Vs. 2
I am all alone
As I wait for you
Just a fairytale princess
Where's my dream come true
Waiting for my hero
My knight to rescue me
As I dream of my happy end
C.
Cause only you can fill the void
Only you can make me whole
So I'll sit here and I'll wait
For my prince to take me home
Cause only you can take my dreams
Make them into something real
I am waiting for the one
Who can sweep me away
I'm waiting for a brighter day
Oh yeah
Where's my brighter day?
ye-ah....
I have dreamed a dream
Of a brighter day
I have watched and waited
For that dream to come true
And I'll sit and I'll wait
As I wish for you
As I dream of a life spent with you
C.
Cause only you can fill the void
Only you can make me whole
So I'll sit here and I'll wait
For my prince to take me home
Cause only you can take my dreams
Make them into something real
I am waiting for the one
Who can sweep me away
I'm waiting for a brighter day
Vs. 2
I am all alone
As I wait for you
Just a fairytale princess
Where's my dream come true
Waiting for my hero
My knight to rescue me
As I dream of my happy end
C.
Cause only you can fill the void
Only you can make me whole
So I'll sit here and I'll wait
For my prince to take me home
Cause only you can take my dreams
Make them into something real
I am waiting for the one
Who can sweep me away
I'm waiting for a brighter day
Oh yeah
Where's my brighter day?
ye-ah....
What is Love?
What is love
I know that I found it once long ago
What is love
When you're not here I forget what I'm fighting for
I know that love can be true
And I know that I found love here with you
But I know that love can be impossible
And without love
What would I do
Without you?
I know that love can make you strong
And I know that love
Can feel so wrong
But what, what, what
Can make this real?
Can change the way I feel?
What is love
A time so true
What is love
I found it here with you
And this love, this love
Takes away the things that make me blue
And I found it here with you
You... Ooh I found it here with you
Oh.... oh...
What is love?
Without you?
I know that I found it once long ago
What is love
When you're not here I forget what I'm fighting for
I know that love can be true
And I know that I found love here with you
But I know that love can be impossible
And without love
What would I do
Without you?
I know that love can make you strong
And I know that love
Can feel so wrong
But what, what, what
Can make this real?
Can change the way I feel?
What is love
A time so true
What is love
I found it here with you
And this love, this love
Takes away the things that make me blue
And I found it here with you
You... Ooh I found it here with you
Oh.... oh...
What is love?
Without you?
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Beauty From My Pain
When I first found out about Michael's death, a friend recommended I listen to this song, he said it would help, and the truth is really listening to the lyrics , it did help. The lyrics give me hope that I will heal and be happy again someday. And that was the best thing I could have gotten right then, its still what I need.
I love you Michael!
and I will never ever forget ♥
"Beauty From Pain"
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i'm slipping away
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
I love you Michael!
and I will never ever forget ♥
"Beauty From Pain"
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i'm slipping away
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
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